oh alright, and an assignment I need to write... but it’s not due till 11:59pm Monday, so it’ll get done. Maybe. Hopefully. No, it will! I promise!! I’m just in that brain block mode of I know what I need to do but I just can’t make myself do it. The task should be easy - critically reflective essay! Like that’s basically an intelligent sounding blog post 😂 It’s my last assessment for the subject, my final 30%. I’ve passed everything else so I don’t need to panic, I only have to pass. Not like I need 90/30... But here I am, putting it off.
You know, 4 years ago if you had told me I’d be back at uni I would have laughed in your face! As if I’d have time for that!! I had a house and a job and kids and a husband... I was waaaaay too busy! And I really didn’t need to strive for anything more. But the funny thing about life is, it has its own plans. It makes you walk down paths you never knew existed. It gives you all these obstacles and somehow you find the ability to overcome them. I guess being stubborn has its perks!!
If Kenny Rogers taught us anything, it’s “you gotta know when to hold ‘em and know when to fold ‘em” There’s plenty of times I could have folded! I could have given up, thrown it all in, admitted defeat... it sure would have been easier! But I didn’t have kids to give up on them. I wanted to contribute decent humans to society. So those crazy little punks are what made me keep going and want more from life. They need to know the value of hard work. They need to see that struggles make you stronger, that not everything in life is easy. Sometimes you don’t get what you want! And sometimes, not having things go your way is actually the best thing that can happen to you...
Did any of us want this shitty coronavirus to derail our lives?? I think not! Have we suffered from it? Sure we have, some more than others. But have we learned from it?? You betcha!! We’ve learned to take care of each other, even doing things for strangers. We’ve learned to live without luxuries of eating out, having our nails done, going to the movies... (ok I’m only assuming that one cos I rarely did those things anyway 😂) We’ve learned that some people are just outright selfish twats (think most of us knew that already) But most importantly, we’ve learned that life does indeed go on.
Anyway as usual, I’m kinda just waffling in no obvious direction. That’s really just my brain on a regular basis... Too many tabs open, not enough bandwidth. Honestly I don’t even remember the last thing I posted about... maybe should have checked that before I started huh... one thing I definitely haven’t written about, is that I’ve finally officially submitted my application for divorce! It’s kinda weird being happy about that, but I think it’s the final piece of the puzzle. Once it’s done this part of my life can end. Metaphorically of course. And obviously there will be a big ass celebration! Mostly cos restrictions should be (hopefully) lifted by then so we can actually go out, and cos I spent my birthday drinking alone 🤷🏼♀️ It’s more of a celebration of ME! All that I am. On my own. I am a whole different person and I’m more “me” than I’ve ever been.
I’m currently listening to Essential Wendy Matthews so I’ll leave you with a line that just struck me “if only I could, I’d make this world a better place”
well you know what? That is exactly my intention. And I think it’s a sign that I need to write an amazing essay and get on that career path.
